Looking Back, It Never Felt So Good

30 Nov 2007

First off, I would like to apologize to NashvilleCyclist for telling him I'd write a season re-cap over a month ago.  It's kind of crazy to think that the season has been over for more than two months.  I've even already started training for next year but I haven't really taken the time to sit, reflect and then write about what happened last year.

2007 was a great year for me in so many ways.  I signed on with Aaron's Corp. Furnishings Pro Cycling team and I knew I had a real opportunity to prove myself.  Since I started racing on the national circuit in 2005, I felt like I had the ability to be successful at that level.  I got some great experience with Ford-Basis and Victory Brewing, but I never made it onto the top step of the podium.  Up to that point most of my success had come out of smaller number situations, like a break-away or a last minute flier.  I busted my ass to make other teams race and to try to put other people on my teams in good positions to win.  As I was talking to Carmen D'Aluisio at the end of 2006 I told her that I thought I could win some races on my own.  She totally fell for it and signed me on...

The year started with racing in California.  I was racing okay, but it felt pretty similar to 2006.  After the California stint of racing on the NRC calendar, I really tried to focus on getting myself to where I needed to be to perform better in races.  I hadn't been horrible, but I also hadn't shown what I thought I was capable of.  I had just gotten my SRM and finally started to train with it a bit.  After some bad workouts and a frustrating local NorCal race the weekend before I left for Athens, GA, I called my coach, Mike Engleman, and asked the very technical question, WTF?  We decided I just needed to ride and not worry about much else...

I was excited to be going to Georgia for Athens Twilight and the entire crit series they'd organized the following week.  "Twilight" was my first NRC race in 2005 when I was still with BMW-Bianchi, and I still haven't found another race with a better atmosphere.  I felt pretty good and kept finding myself off the front, winning primes.  I kept the pressure on after one prime to see who would want to race with me.  A group of five of us got off the front, and from that point on, I tried to stay smart.  I didn't pull anymore than I needed to and I let the two girls who weren't on major teams take most of the primes the rest of the race to keep them motivated to work.  I knew I was in a good position because we had two riders hanging out in the pack that could have won the race if it all came back together.  The noise was crazy, and when we got inside five to go I knew that our break was going to make it.  I tried to attack with two to go, but the girls who had been sitting on easily covered it. I ended up going through the last two turns in fourth wheel.  Once we made the last corner, I went as hard as I could.  I came around Iona Wynter with 10 meters to go to the line to win the first race of my career.  I have never felt so good on a bicycle.  To win the race that had been my first introduction into "big girl racing" made me feel I had come full circle. 

Nostalgia aside, I had proven to my director, my team...and most importantly myself...that I could win a race.  I went on to place 3rd in the crit series overall and had a lot of momentum going into the Joe Martin Stage Race.  My luck continued there as my team did a fantastic job to put me in a position to win the first and last stages, and subsequently the overall. 

The wins and results were great, but mentally I could not have asked for a better May.  When I chose to really commit myself to cycling, I made some big life choices.  I worked two jobs the fall/winter before I moved out to California to train full time without working a normal job.  I left my family and friends in Nashville for milder weather and opened myself up to meeting a whole new community and set of friends.  Even now that I am happily settled out here, cycling takes center stage.  Training and resting take up most of my time when I'm home and when I'm off traveling to races for weeks at a time, I have to put any semblance of a "normal" life on hold.  There are a lot of sacrifices...To finally win a race served as actual proof to back up what I had believed I was capable of accomplishing.  It made me feel like I wasn't crazy for sacrificing and believing in myself.  And it was a HUGE confidence boost.  I felt like I could do anything on the bike.

Luckily, in order to do some ego-control the national team sent me to Europe to race my first international stage races in June.  As soon as I felt like I had a hold on what I needed to do to be successful in the US, I got to see that I still had A VERY LONG WAY to go in Europe.  I got dropped almost every day in the Pyrenees and Dolomites.  Somehow my performances showed something and I got a second invitation for a September trip.  At the end of that last trip in September, I found myself in a solo break away for most of the race, and I rode 72k by myself to get my first European stage win.  It was a great way to close out the year and left me with a result to keep me super motivated during the off-season.

I was lucky enough to secure a contract with Aaron's Pro Cycling team again for next year.  In addition to racing with Aaron's, I will have the opportunity to race quite a bit with the National team in Europe.  Its a bit of a new program, but Aaron's and all our team sponsors have been very supportive of me racing with both squads.  I am going to have an opportunity to do some fantastic racing and to gain a lot of experience.  My racing calendar for 2008 is coming together nicely, but when I start blocking out the dates on the calendar, the schedule looks daunting at times.  I might be crazy again to think that I can handle this much racing, but I think I can do it...and do it well.  


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